Hello Grief (and Other Familiar Feelings)

Just when I thought you packed up and left, When I finally felt free… There you appear at my front door, again. I should’ve known it was you. Your gentle knock of secret, unexpected tears. My lagging appetite. Ever-growing apathy. Dear Grief, What triggered your return? I’m guessing the random prom picture I saw on […]

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If She is Drowning, Please Save Her

Feet first- an airless descent. With a heavy splash, she enters the water. The bubbles overtake her head. They float to the top, as if a means for survival. She feels the blue water surround her body and soak through her hair. She asks if this is her destiny. This sensation of feeling overwhelmed and […]

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Confessions of a MidLife Mom

Out in the beautiful Serengeti, you hear the light gallop of cleft hooves. As the sound approaches, it becomes louder.  That gallop soon turns into a full blown sprint and before you realize it, whatever created that sound has vanished. A stately rhino? No. A startled zebra? Hardly. It’s the sound of your 3-year-old running […]

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Open Letter To My Neurotypical Daughter

I breathed a bit easier on the day you were born. From my over-stretched, worn-out belly you emerged, with a mezzo-soprano scream. You were my rainbow baby, almost 2 years after my miscarriage. When I heard the Doctor say, “She’s fine”, I felt at ease. It wasn’t that I feared Down Syndrome, it was that […]

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